Alright, post #1, this is for Yasashiku. 2 more to come for captains.
Yasashiku put on her best furious face. It wasn’t going over well. Despite her short tenure as captain, the people of the 4th squad knew her too well. The fury in her gaze that would easily have fit on anyone else’s face was odd on hers. They’d seen her placid fury before, and it was something she simply could not fake. Nonetheless, she stalked her way to the office, ignoring pleas of those around her to see to her injuries. She had already bandaged herself up and closed some of the more dangerous open wounds, but she refused to get care for the rest. She practically charged into the office, slamming the door with a huff behind her. Eisaku was seated at the desk, where he had obediently kept up what little shield he could around the whole building. How had he ever listened to her.
Eisaku: You look like hell. What happ-
Yasashiku: Out.
Eisaku looked puzzled. Yes, he had known her longer than most, and that anger on her face must have looked even less convincing to him. He looked beat, the energy from keeping up the barrier must have been exhausting to continuously exude like that. Her empathy for him was quickly submerged in the sea of emotions that raged within her. She slammed her fist into the wall on her right, putting absolutely no energy into it and yet making a large indent in the wall.
Yasashiku: I SAID LEAVE!
That got him moving, though the puzzled look never left his face. He picked himself up quickly, though his steps seemed to drag. Maybe it was just her impatience. A bit of concern came into his eyes just as he was about to leave, but he said nothing, and closed the door behind him.
Yasashiku sat down at her desk with a grunt. Papers still covered the desk from all sectors of the Soul Society, though almost all of them were outdated. No one cared about paperwork when Soul Society shook under the brunt of such ferocious attacks. Nonetheless, she picked up a paper, and started signing line after line. She finished, putting it in a tray marked “finished” to her right. She picked up another, repeating the exercise, but faster. She did this with paper after paper until a sizeable stack started to develop. Soon, however, her signature became illegible, the parts of the paper she signed haphazard and patternless. Drops of blood from reopened wounds on her arms began to paint the papers red. Tears began to fall from her eyes down to the papers below, smearing ink and blood into misshapen and dirty rose petals that scattered across the pages.
Unable to see through the tears, she roared in anger and depression. She threw the pen against the far wall, which shattered on contact in a hail of ink and metal. She swept her arms across the desk, sending up a flurry of papers in every direction that rained down like feathers off dying birds. She lay her head down on the table, hands held to the back of her skull. It was agony. The picture of Zane in her head was nothing but agony. She couldn’t protect him. She couldn’t protect anyone. For all her bluster about how she would change the 4th squad, she was…helpless. She wanted to scream out in pain, a pain that no physical injury had ever provided her, the pain of utter failure…but she couldn’t. The 4th squad needed her to remain strong, and she couldn’t let the image of her strength fade, even if the actuality was so.
She was suddenly startled by a black butterfly that had landed on her hand. A captain’s meeting had been called. She hurried to her feet, brushing away the tears from her eyes and leaving smears of red on her face. She rebandaged a couple of wounds that had come undone, straightened her tattered clothing, and walked out the door, shoulders straight and head held high. Her expression was austere. She would act like the leader they needed, even if she wasn’t fit for the role.
Yasashiku put on her best furious face. It wasn’t going over well. Despite her short tenure as captain, the people of the 4th squad knew her too well. The fury in her gaze that would easily have fit on anyone else’s face was odd on hers. They’d seen her placid fury before, and it was something she simply could not fake. Nonetheless, she stalked her way to the office, ignoring pleas of those around her to see to her injuries. She had already bandaged herself up and closed some of the more dangerous open wounds, but she refused to get care for the rest. She practically charged into the office, slamming the door with a huff behind her. Eisaku was seated at the desk, where he had obediently kept up what little shield he could around the whole building. How had he ever listened to her.
Eisaku: You look like hell. What happ-
Yasashiku: Out.
Eisaku looked puzzled. Yes, he had known her longer than most, and that anger on her face must have looked even less convincing to him. He looked beat, the energy from keeping up the barrier must have been exhausting to continuously exude like that. Her empathy for him was quickly submerged in the sea of emotions that raged within her. She slammed her fist into the wall on her right, putting absolutely no energy into it and yet making a large indent in the wall.
Yasashiku: I SAID LEAVE!
That got him moving, though the puzzled look never left his face. He picked himself up quickly, though his steps seemed to drag. Maybe it was just her impatience. A bit of concern came into his eyes just as he was about to leave, but he said nothing, and closed the door behind him.
Yasashiku sat down at her desk with a grunt. Papers still covered the desk from all sectors of the Soul Society, though almost all of them were outdated. No one cared about paperwork when Soul Society shook under the brunt of such ferocious attacks. Nonetheless, she picked up a paper, and started signing line after line. She finished, putting it in a tray marked “finished” to her right. She picked up another, repeating the exercise, but faster. She did this with paper after paper until a sizeable stack started to develop. Soon, however, her signature became illegible, the parts of the paper she signed haphazard and patternless. Drops of blood from reopened wounds on her arms began to paint the papers red. Tears began to fall from her eyes down to the papers below, smearing ink and blood into misshapen and dirty rose petals that scattered across the pages.
Unable to see through the tears, she roared in anger and depression. She threw the pen against the far wall, which shattered on contact in a hail of ink and metal. She swept her arms across the desk, sending up a flurry of papers in every direction that rained down like feathers off dying birds. She lay her head down on the table, hands held to the back of her skull. It was agony. The picture of Zane in her head was nothing but agony. She couldn’t protect him. She couldn’t protect anyone. For all her bluster about how she would change the 4th squad, she was…helpless. She wanted to scream out in pain, a pain that no physical injury had ever provided her, the pain of utter failure…but she couldn’t. The 4th squad needed her to remain strong, and she couldn’t let the image of her strength fade, even if the actuality was so.
She was suddenly startled by a black butterfly that had landed on her hand. A captain’s meeting had been called. She hurried to her feet, brushing away the tears from her eyes and leaving smears of red on her face. She rebandaged a couple of wounds that had come undone, straightened her tattered clothing, and walked out the door, shoulders straight and head held high. Her expression was austere. She would act like the leader they needed, even if she wasn’t fit for the role.