The time seemed to go by too fast that night. I stared at the ceiling. My mind so blank, yet so complex with thoughts. I knew that I just wasn't ready for this. Abortion isn't even a option though. It doesn't matter whether you drown your baby in the bathtub or nip him the butt, murder is murder. Omg! What if I end up a cray mother like that?
I shook my head furiously. No, that won't be me. I will love and take care of my child. How exactly I'm going to do that I'm not sure. I'm too much a chicken to tell Emet. I would completely ruin his future. That boy has his college fund in the bag. He is so smart and amazing at sports. Imagine if he were to throw all that away to work at McDonald's and support me and this "thing". I just can't do that to him.
What about me? I'm advanced in all my classes and I've been dreaming of the University of Texas since I was like 7 years old. I can't attend UT with a baby. I wanted to travel and see this vast creation God has made. I can't do that with a baby. I'm a teenager who has no idea what I'm doing. Guess that's no excuse. I feel pretty hopeless right now.
Who would I tell first? (Other than Lette)...Could I tell Emet before my own mom? But then again Emet could help me approach my mom if he knew first. Ughhh, I don't know what to do! I'm only a teenager. This wasn't what I would've thought of when I thought of high school. There goes the nest four years. Kiss them goodbye.
I shook my head furiously. No, that won't be me. I will love and take care of my child. How exactly I'm going to do that I'm not sure. I'm too much a chicken to tell Emet. I would completely ruin his future. That boy has his college fund in the bag. He is so smart and amazing at sports. Imagine if he were to throw all that away to work at McDonald's and support me and this "thing". I just can't do that to him.
What about me? I'm advanced in all my classes and I've been dreaming of the University of Texas since I was like 7 years old. I can't attend UT with a baby. I wanted to travel and see this vast creation God has made. I can't do that with a baby. I'm a teenager who has no idea what I'm doing. Guess that's no excuse. I feel pretty hopeless right now.
Who would I tell first? (Other than Lette)...Could I tell Emet before my own mom? But then again Emet could help me approach my mom if he knew first. Ughhh, I don't know what to do! I'm only a teenager. This wasn't what I would've thought of when I thought of high school. There goes the nest four years. Kiss them goodbye.
Another poem by me. This one came out kinda lame,but I'll let the rating be the judge (assuming there will be any).
That Girl
Have you seen that girl,
That goes around here and there?
Nobody knows where she’s going,
Is she even going somewhere?
Pretty face, pretty hair,
Nobody knows her name,
She seems sad, what a coincidence,
I’ve been feeling the same.
She seems lost,
Doesn’t even know where she’s from,
I’m a nice guy so I invite her,
To stay in my home.
She seats in the couch,
My, is she pretty?
I wonder what I can say,
To comfort that girl , so dreamy.
Sarah,
She tells me it’s her name,
She feels sad,
Funny,
Because I’ve been feeling the same
That Girl
Have you seen that girl,
That goes around here and there?
Nobody knows where she’s going,
Is she even going somewhere?
Pretty face, pretty hair,
Nobody knows her name,
She seems sad, what a coincidence,
I’ve been feeling the same.
She seems lost,
Doesn’t even know where she’s from,
I’m a nice guy so I invite her,
To stay in my home.
She seats in the couch,
My, is she pretty?
I wonder what I can say,
To comfort that girl , so dreamy.
Sarah,
She tells me it’s her name,
She feels sad,
Funny,
Because I’ve been feeling the same
I wrote this yesterday when me and my boyfriend had a big fight and it's a fight that may go on for a long time. I know I am young to write something like this but, I guess it helps. Plus If you don't like it just tell me, ok?
The Power of Words
You and I had this big long fight,
It felt like the storm during the night.
It was verry sad and cold,
My friends had to like you a lot
and you felt like I forgot,
forgot about you.
But I had a prodject due.
You think you're mr. I'm so cool
but you used to act like a ghool.
Not to the people you love,
to the sensetive people like a dove.
How we spoke with eachother,
made you feel much better.
But the fight we had,
you said was nothing but it was bad.
See ya pal we're ova,
take the cell you gave me and do me a fava.
Just don't ever,
Never...
Talk to me again!
The Power of Words
You and I had this big long fight,
It felt like the storm during the night.
It was verry sad and cold,
My friends had to like you a lot
and you felt like I forgot,
forgot about you.
But I had a prodject due.
You think you're mr. I'm so cool
but you used to act like a ghool.
Not to the people you love,
to the sensetive people like a dove.
How we spoke with eachother,
made you feel much better.
But the fight we had,
you said was nothing but it was bad.
See ya pal we're ova,
take the cell you gave me and do me a fava.
Just don't ever,
Never...
Talk to me again!