There I was… Stepping on my own feet on the real ground. Yeah… the real one.
No more “dad, will you give me a ride to…?”, or “ please mom, I need that money to buy a lovely pair of jeans”.
No more dependence, no more good meals in family, no more life as I know it.
Time to step up on my feet.
Lily is my name…and I´m 18 years old. This is the new beginning of a new life. MY own life, the one that I have to build up.
Desperate about all this thoughts, all I could do is call my BF to cry over the phone.
-Soph…Oh Soph! This is nerve racking…OMG OMG OMG! I can´t believe we´re moving out togheter to college! Can YOU believe it?! OHH soph, I´m soo nervous, I don´t know if this is for me ´cause…- she stopped me right away.
-Lily…come on. Stop it. You know that this is super, this is what we´be been expecting since…ALWAYS! And, it´s ok…I won´t say it´s not frightening, but…Imagine it! You, me, cute college boys and parties that rock! And well, the whole new places where we…- she said. Yes, Sophie was the one that could calm me down and make me think wisely. I always leaned on her as she could lean on me. I was the one that would always complain and freak out and she was always the one that talk to me and compose me.
-Ok Soph, but I´m really scared. And I´m gonna miss my family, too. And, I don´t know how to work! I´ve never worked in my life!! Not ever as a babysitter!! OMG Soph..! I´m freaking out again!...
-Ok, just let it go. Let all the things that worry you go away.- I obeyed. Silence.- Now, Lil, take a deep breath and let all the bad thoughts be gone with the air.- Again, I obeyed. I felt quieter now. Wow, she was really good at this.
-Done. Wow Soph, you should really become a therapist…
-Haha- Laughed softly- well…you know I´m really not interested on that kind of things.-she answer.
-Well…see you in two days. And please So, pack my favourite shirt of yours so you can lend it to me when we arrive.- I smiled.
-No problem! Well, see you soon and behave please!
-Haha, ok I promise.- I hung up.
Yeah…That was a really hard promise to keep with all the panic I had.
No more “dad, will you give me a ride to…?”, or “ please mom, I need that money to buy a lovely pair of jeans”.
No more dependence, no more good meals in family, no more life as I know it.
Time to step up on my feet.
Lily is my name…and I´m 18 years old. This is the new beginning of a new life. MY own life, the one that I have to build up.
Desperate about all this thoughts, all I could do is call my BF to cry over the phone.
-Soph…Oh Soph! This is nerve racking…OMG OMG OMG! I can´t believe we´re moving out togheter to college! Can YOU believe it?! OHH soph, I´m soo nervous, I don´t know if this is for me ´cause…- she stopped me right away.
-Lily…come on. Stop it. You know that this is super, this is what we´be been expecting since…ALWAYS! And, it´s ok…I won´t say it´s not frightening, but…Imagine it! You, me, cute college boys and parties that rock! And well, the whole new places where we…- she said. Yes, Sophie was the one that could calm me down and make me think wisely. I always leaned on her as she could lean on me. I was the one that would always complain and freak out and she was always the one that talk to me and compose me.
-Ok Soph, but I´m really scared. And I´m gonna miss my family, too. And, I don´t know how to work! I´ve never worked in my life!! Not ever as a babysitter!! OMG Soph..! I´m freaking out again!...
-Ok, just let it go. Let all the things that worry you go away.- I obeyed. Silence.- Now, Lil, take a deep breath and let all the bad thoughts be gone with the air.- Again, I obeyed. I felt quieter now. Wow, she was really good at this.
-Done. Wow Soph, you should really become a therapist…
-Haha- Laughed softly- well…you know I´m really not interested on that kind of things.-she answer.
-Well…see you in two days. And please So, pack my favourite shirt of yours so you can lend it to me when we arrive.- I smiled.
-No problem! Well, see you soon and behave please!
-Haha, ok I promise.- I hung up.
Yeah…That was a really hard promise to keep with all the panic I had.
Normally, this style just isn't me, but I feel like I needed to release all of my wrath, turning it into sadness, eventually.
So, I'm not an emo poem writer, but I just wanted to publish this piece I literally just wrote.
I am broken
There's no one left to fix me.
All hope is lost
There's so much I will never be.
I am broken
My world has been shattered.
All hope is lost
I am nothing, destroyed and battered.
I am broken
The world around me falls apart.
All hope is lost
There is no chance for a new start.
I am broken
I have been left here on my own.
All hope is lost
There's no one else; I am here alone.
I am broken
The pain is too much for me to bare.
All hope is lost
In the end, the others just don't care.
I was broken
No tears remain in my fearful eyes.
All hope is gone
My world ended with nothing but lies.
So, I'm not an emo poem writer, but I just wanted to publish this piece I literally just wrote.
I am broken
There's no one left to fix me.
All hope is lost
There's so much I will never be.
I am broken
My world has been shattered.
All hope is lost
I am nothing, destroyed and battered.
I am broken
The world around me falls apart.
All hope is lost
There is no chance for a new start.
I am broken
I have been left here on my own.
All hope is lost
There's no one else; I am here alone.
I am broken
The pain is too much for me to bare.
All hope is lost
In the end, the others just don't care.
I was broken
No tears remain in my fearful eyes.
All hope is gone
My world ended with nothing but lies.