Shadowfan here!
In case you all didn't know, today is my birthday. (Well, when i wrote this, it was still Aug 13th, now it's the 14th) 25 years ago today, I made my way into this fascinating, yet dark and mysterious world we call: Earth. Over the years, I have learned a lot about the world around me. I've learn that there is not only evil here, but also good--even when it seems so lost and buried. Now, although today was a pretty good birthday, I'd like to take a moment out of this day to talk about someone I know. Someone that left me too soon.
I don't talk about him much, but now I think it's time to. 25 years ago, my mother gave birth to twin boys--Me and Jeremy. He was born pretty healthy, while I was the one with a lot of health problems. We were born 3 months early, but somehow, Jeremy turned out OK for the most part. However, it seemed like one of us were just destined to leave rather quickly. 2 months after birth, my twin brother sadly passed away. Granted, he had problems, too, but not as bad as mine were. I basically got the crappy end of the stick....
And so, I grow up without a twin--and I often wonder what it would have been like, you know? Now, also granted, I have 3 other siblings (two bro's and a sis) and I'm grateful for them. But it still gets to me at times, especially since I was raised by my grandmother, practically being in an "only child environment" my whole life, which stunk most of the time.
Sometimes, I do actually wonder what it would have been like to have a twin--would we have been exactly alike? Extremely opposite? Guess I'll never know. For the past few years, I went through that depression phase I talked about in my other article, and at that time (and sometimes even now) I wonder why I couldn't have joined Jeremy. Why couldn't I die with him? Why was it that I had to stay here while he left before he could even understand what world he was born into? *sighs* I ask questions I may never know the answers to, but it's OK. As for my depression, I am trying my very best to move forward. I have a few days like I use to, but I manage. But one thing I know is that I do actually miss him. I mean, I can't really cry over him, because I never even knew him. But I wish I could have at least knew what it would have been like to have him around. Well, anyway, I have said all I wanted to say, so....
Jeremy, if you're out there anywhere, just know I'm thinking about ya. I may not have known you, but I hope to see you in Heaven. Love, your older twin, Joshua.
In case you all didn't know, today is my birthday. (Well, when i wrote this, it was still Aug 13th, now it's the 14th) 25 years ago today, I made my way into this fascinating, yet dark and mysterious world we call: Earth. Over the years, I have learned a lot about the world around me. I've learn that there is not only evil here, but also good--even when it seems so lost and buried. Now, although today was a pretty good birthday, I'd like to take a moment out of this day to talk about someone I know. Someone that left me too soon.
I don't talk about him much, but now I think it's time to. 25 years ago, my mother gave birth to twin boys--Me and Jeremy. He was born pretty healthy, while I was the one with a lot of health problems. We were born 3 months early, but somehow, Jeremy turned out OK for the most part. However, it seemed like one of us were just destined to leave rather quickly. 2 months after birth, my twin brother sadly passed away. Granted, he had problems, too, but not as bad as mine were. I basically got the crappy end of the stick....
And so, I grow up without a twin--and I often wonder what it would have been like, you know? Now, also granted, I have 3 other siblings (two bro's and a sis) and I'm grateful for them. But it still gets to me at times, especially since I was raised by my grandmother, practically being in an "only child environment" my whole life, which stunk most of the time.
Sometimes, I do actually wonder what it would have been like to have a twin--would we have been exactly alike? Extremely opposite? Guess I'll never know. For the past few years, I went through that depression phase I talked about in my other article, and at that time (and sometimes even now) I wonder why I couldn't have joined Jeremy. Why couldn't I die with him? Why was it that I had to stay here while he left before he could even understand what world he was born into? *sighs* I ask questions I may never know the answers to, but it's OK. As for my depression, I am trying my very best to move forward. I have a few days like I use to, but I manage. But one thing I know is that I do actually miss him. I mean, I can't really cry over him, because I never even knew him. But I wish I could have at least knew what it would have been like to have him around. Well, anyway, I have said all I wanted to say, so....
Jeremy, if you're out there anywhere, just know I'm thinking about ya. I may not have known you, but I hope to see you in Heaven. Love, your older twin, Joshua.
Why do so many people use Facebook? Well for one, I think that so many people use it because of
persuading. There are millions of videos, posts peoples opinions,so people would want to see all of them. Facebook can also persuade you to make an account, because you may want to comment your opinion on something, but need to make a profile to do that. It's like Facebook combines all of the popular types of websites such as: Gaming websites,video websites(Youtube),and sites like Fanpop! Facebook is a persuading brainwashing site that I
do not recommend going to. Facebook CAN attract anyone. Facebook is sort-of like some businesses. For example: Have you ever walked into a grocery store and noticed deals you think are better like 5.00 for 1 can each of tuna, but only 20.00 for a four-set container with four cans of the same exact tuna? Well yes, that's sort-of what facebook does. ©2014Tailsfan99(Fanpop),all rights reserved.
persuading. There are millions of videos, posts peoples opinions,so people would want to see all of them. Facebook can also persuade you to make an account, because you may want to comment your opinion on something, but need to make a profile to do that. It's like Facebook combines all of the popular types of websites such as: Gaming websites,video websites(Youtube),and sites like Fanpop! Facebook is a persuading brainwashing site that I
do not recommend going to. Facebook CAN attract anyone. Facebook is sort-of like some businesses. For example: Have you ever walked into a grocery store and noticed deals you think are better like 5.00 for 1 can each of tuna, but only 20.00 for a four-set container with four cans of the same exact tuna? Well yes, that's sort-of what facebook does. ©2014Tailsfan99(Fanpop),all rights reserved.