Compare your current self and situation with your three years younger self

I was much happier and in a much better position three years ago. Tbh it pretty much all went downhill. I was doing pretty good from December to May last year but then everything got all fucky when my parents got laid off at the same time. Also in 2015 I hadn't started a shitty retail job yet. Loads of concerts that year too.

I was always a bit of a pessimist but, like now I am 100% certain that I have every right to be.


On the bright side I quit my shitty retail job and I've got an interview later this week. I'm just hoping that, that goes well. I started taking my writing more seriously and actually typing and I started to learn more about how to use FL Studio.

Nothing major has changed. Things are perfectly fine and going as planned in a few words my life is balanced and stable :)

Oh dude I am so much better off than I was 3 years ago.

2015 was kind of awful tbh. My relationship was long distance still, I had just graduated high school and didn't know the fuck what I wanted to do with my life. I spent most of my time in my room at my mom and dad's, on my ass on Skype with my s/o and trying in vain to write a novel that just never was going to happen.
Like, the best thing that was happening in my life 3 years ago from today was I got to keep my cat. Which I mean is pretty great because I love her but like, literally nothing else was happening.

But now, like, things are a lot harder than they were then probably because a lot of stressful things are happening in my life, but I feel pretty damn alright. I feel like I'm going somewhere with my life and I'm kind of really looking forward to building a career and striving for that Wealthy Start Up Business Boy status. Stressful as fuck but also fun and exciting.



An interesting question btw.

Oh yikes. Everything is a lot better now compared to three years ago. I dont specifically remember what exactly was three years ago because I dont have a good memory of my own life for mental health reasons, but honestly I was a huge mental health mess.

Pretty much had no irl friends, didn't exist anywhere but offline, hated myself on the down-low, super depressed, bouncing from one co-dependent friendship to the next, and was pretty fucking depressed anytime I wasnt watching anime or writing. Plus I was kinda just overall more "Eh" about the future.

Since then Ive started therapy, been processing past trauma, got my life fucking together, got my irl identity solidified, got into honestly one of the best relationships I could imagine being in, am active in the college band, found a passion of mine to follow through, in college and thus learning at a faster pace with harder(ish cause its freshmen year and mostly review GEs) material, and honestly have a much better eating, sleeping, and work out routine then ever

Plus Im able to build my skills and since Im on medication for anxiety and have gone through almost two years of therapy and been very focused on recovering - I am proud to say I am [mostly] recovered from most of the gallons of mental health shit I had before. I mean I still have them and I am still affected by it, but in comparison to the past its nothing

Oh if I were to say something on the downside, I have lost a few friends in the time and I dont live with my birds and am now long distance with my boyfriend but those are all minor in comparison.

I wish I hadn't chose medical at that time ! My life would have been much easier and not as stressed ! Anyway I was in 10th grade and these three years were very experiencing part of my life. I met new people and my current situation is worse -_- but im optimistic about my future and hopefully I'll get addition in a better uni ♡

I'm still a depressed and useless piece of shit, but at least I have a baby

Well, there isn't much of a change between the Present Me and the Me from three years ago. If you had went with a few more like five for example, I would have had much more to say. Anyway, I had my ups and downs during this period.

For starters, I have already finished School and I'm currently attending my 2nd year at University. I study Archaeology which has always been one of my biggest desires ever since I was very young. Things sure can get tough at times but I'm still grateful for the opportunity and doing the best I can as it is certainly something that interests me greatly. Other than that, I am taking lessons at playing the Guitar and also practicing in Wing Chun Kung Fu (A Martial Art). Both have been having an impact in me offering physical just as mental growth. I'm taking a break currently from the later, mainly because of a recent operation I had to undertake but I will be resuming my training in a few months from now. Still need a bit more time to recover. Another thing I can say is that I am more positive than I used to be, I guess? Had to go through some pretty bad experiences these last two Summers but you could say that I became stronger through them and more willing to move on in Life. That's the gist of things, pretty much !!!!

I was a prick in my younger years.

Nothing major except I have insomnia now and it's not fun. My sleeping schedule has been screwed up for some time but not like it is now. I have a very bad habit of staying on my laptop all night watching youtube videos and reading fan fiction that it keeps me up till like 4 or 5 am. But now I can't even fall asleep before 7 am, I even had only 3 and half hours of sleep this morning. I think part of my sleeping problem is from watching the new horror/drama/mystery show on Netflix, The Haunting of Hill house. I am a horror fanatic but this got to me. Anyways, I bought sleeping pills today so that should help me get to sleep at a normalish hour.

Then there's my nephew who was born on August 26th. It's a big experience for me, I wish it had been me who had been pregnant instead of my little sister but unfortunately it wasn't me. Anyways, even though I've only known him for 2 months, I adore him. He is just so precious to me.

Sadly, I'm still as shy and nervous around people like I was 3 years ago. Hopefully I can make that change along with my sleeping habits.