Anxiety issues? Depression? What's going on with me?

Wow. I've been there before, but not with those circumstances. I don't know exactly what you feel, but Jesus does. Turn to Him. He's waiting for you to tell Him how you feel, and He's waiting to show you how much He loves you.

*sigh* Depression. We all have been depressed. Cuz, everybody has a private world where they can be alone. Believe me, I know how it feels like. I'm bullied at school, my mother hates me, and I lost my best friend. It hurts. But when I was drowning, and nobody saw me struggle, music was my only friend. So my advice is to listen to music and ignore the world.

What your feeling...I understand it I have depression I feel lonely I feel worthless my father abandoned me and I have terrible trust issues with guys . Trust me im clingy has well and really emotional and I over reacted to a point people think im insane . And I to feel like I will always be alone due to anxiety and I think you may have depression cause that's what I have

You're not the only person that deals with depression, don't worry. I don't think there's anything wrong with you. Everyone gets depressed at least once in their life.

You can maybe just sit it out and wait it through. Or if you feel really depressed, smile. Smiling actually makes you feel better.

If you live through everything and your life actually gets better, everything will seem like a much more happier place than before.

I don't know, either. I think there's depression within me.

Everything you described is what happened to me, too. Except for everything mom and dudes.

My grandmother passed away 4/4/13.

This year. This year was supposed to be special. But she died of liver cancer. The doctors said that was the most painful cancer to go through, but in my opinion, all cancers are supposed to be painful. How did your cousin die?

To escape the pain, I try to be fun, ya know. Watch funny videos, say corny jokes; those kind of things.

Look! A funny video from mah favorite anime!

Go big or go home, we're all gonna make it one day.

It's probably your past just now hitting you. I feel alone too, like no matter who I'm with, I'm still alone in the mind and body. I've learned to live with my feelings, excepting that I'll always feel alone. I have very high self confidence despite that though. You might be suffering from depression.

I'm sorry about what has happened to you :(

What you're dealing with is most definitely depression. Please, do get help. Keeping it all to yourself will do no good at all. Talk to a professional about it, book an appointment. As a last resort they can give you medication to help.

To help distract you from it, focus on your hobbies. Got any hobbies like drawing or something like that? Focus on that and improve to keep your mind busy.

I can relate. My depression stemmed from my social anxiety which is still quite bad. I used to cry every day because I couldn't reach out and just plain communicate with people. I had no social life and I would just come home from school each day and lock myself in my room and cry... then come out for dinner, then go straight back to my room and cry myself to sleep every night. I got help and no it didn't 'cure' it, but it helped me gain perspective. What I need to focus on is dealing with my social anxiety, because that is really taking over my life :(

Just remember that no matter how alone you feel, you are still worth while. Life is going to kick you down all the time and you're gonna think that no one cares and you are alone. You're not. Just embrace and acknowledge that the way you're living right now is not mentally healthy, so talk to someone before it gets worse.

I know what you're going through, coming from an 18 year old girl with social anxiety trying to survive university... it's difficult, but we'll get there :)

You should go and talk to your doctor. My mum is going through this right now and she says you should go and talk to your doctor. They will be able to prescribe ou with some anti-depressants and organise counciling for you to deal with your depression and anxiety. It's okay, you're not alone, but you need to deal with this. People can and will help you and if you ever need someone to talk to my inbox is alway open.