I know this isn't Michael related, but I'm having a problem. More along the lines of depression.........

Like i stated in the topic, not Michael related. I've been going through depression lately and it's hard to get better. Lately, since December...getting horrid news that we lost fans due to suicide on Instagram. I've fallen into deeper depression. This is not for attention. I'm being serious. I put on a fake smile so everyone thinks I'm okay when I'm really not. Since December, i have been using a shark tooth and a bobby pin with no rubber cover for cutting. The scars have healed, yes, but they remain right there for me to see how bad it was. I'm trying to find help. I'm trying to get over the fact that Michael isn't here, but like the rest of us, it's hard to even believe he's been gone for now nearly 5 years...
But for the sake of hopefully not cutting again, i'm gonna save up some money so i can go get a tattoo on my left wrist, saying "Stay Strong <3" so it could stop me from grabbing the shark tooth and bobby pin and possibly going deeper into my skin. It goes for me, for Paris, and for everyone who cuts or used to cut or go through depression. I'm really not saying this for attention like how the press think Paris attempted suicide for attention when she didn't. We all know she just wants her dad back, and so do we...