Jeff's POV
I was in the hospital for what have felt more than a week and every day i prayed to be asleep just to dream about the girl i loved, Hayley. Even though i had the same dream everytime i went to sleep it was me and Hayley, but not the Hayley that i loved...it was Hayley William from Paramore and it made me mad cuz it was the Hayley i loved inside but on the outside it wasnt her. When i woke up from those painful and long seven days Hayley was still there sitting there in the chair across the room crying and having her hands in her brown hair but i focused closer to remember her fetures perfectlly before i would die and i knew i would soon. Her beautiful hazel eyes, her pale skin, and her...red colored hair roots. I wondered why it was like that.
She ran to my side with tears running down her face. I ran my finger lightly through her hair as her brown hair was actually a wig.
"You're Hayley William!" I said shocked with my eyes widened. She sighed as she picked up her wig.
"You never noticed? I mean my name is Hayley William Rogers and i have tons of stuff about Paramore in my room." She told me confused.
"Why didnt you tell me? I thought we were best friends and you kept a huge secret from me!" I yelled at her with a little too much force.
"Well you kept a huge secret from me too so you have NO room to speak Mr. Emo!" She yelled back at me grabbing my arms with the deep scars on them i flitched in pain as she pulled away.
"I'm sorry but my mom said i couldnt keep the band if i didnt go to school so i kept it a secret so my band wont make fun of me going back to school"
"Why dont you cut Hayley?" I asked her ceriously. She just stared at me, she sighed.
"I've thought about it for a long time after my sister died but i will never do that knowing death would come soon enough and theres no need to waste a life that hasnt even been close to ending." She began to cry again looking down at my arms.
"I wont change, so dont stick around if you cant handle it." I said harshly at her it made me mad how she cared so much if i wanted someone to care for me i would have told a adult.
"Fine then tell me why you cut yourself if its so important for you to stop."
"My parents kicked me out when i was only 14 and i have been doing stupid mistakes ever since they did it." I looked down disgusted of those memories as i tried to shake them from my mind for a long time but they never left. They were like misguided ghosts that followed me in circles and it was distroying me in little bits soon causing a slow and painful death that i didnt mind to come.
"What stuff have you done?" She asked me.
"Well I've been smoking cigarettes since i was nearly 14 just to find an escape from this town that was so mean to me and Ive been hating the people in this world even if i knew them, knowing that they had someone to come to when they were sad or mad or just to have a fun time, they had a nice, warm home to go to when it was snowing out or a nice kitchen with food enough for a month or two and for that i envy those people cuz when those little kids are getting tucked in their beds and kissed on the cheeck, i was thinking about the same kind of people who used to do that to me until they couldnt handle me anymore, or when i was fighting the snowy nights with nothing but a couple of things to cover me up while they are enjoying hot choclate by a fire, or when they complain that they dont like a vegteble for dinner...well at least they had dinner where i would have to fight a person for a piece of bread only some people would care for me enough to give me a sandwitch or a drink which only lasts a day if i eat slowly." I said mad.
When i looked up at her, she had wide eyes with tears in them and she hugged me softly and said she was sorry but i knew she didnt understand and she never will. W hen the docter came in he looked at me and asked me if i could stand up as i tried i fell to the ground as Hayley looked at my legs with the ankles that were weak from scars as well and it hurt badly.
"You're going to need some blood donated to you if you want to live cuz you lost too much blood already." The docter said as i nodded.
"We could raise money at school for him" Hayley suggested as she kinda looked like she didnt want to go through the efort of getting noticed at school and i didnt argue with that thought i hated people noticing me. The docter nodded and said to hurry soon and i knew that this wont end well.
I was in the hospital for what have felt more than a week and every day i prayed to be asleep just to dream about the girl i loved, Hayley. Even though i had the same dream everytime i went to sleep it was me and Hayley, but not the Hayley that i loved...it was Hayley William from Paramore and it made me mad cuz it was the Hayley i loved inside but on the outside it wasnt her. When i woke up from those painful and long seven days Hayley was still there sitting there in the chair across the room crying and having her hands in her brown hair but i focused closer to remember her fetures perfectlly before i would die and i knew i would soon. Her beautiful hazel eyes, her pale skin, and her...red colored hair roots. I wondered why it was like that.
She ran to my side with tears running down her face. I ran my finger lightly through her hair as her brown hair was actually a wig.
"You're Hayley William!" I said shocked with my eyes widened. She sighed as she picked up her wig.
"You never noticed? I mean my name is Hayley William Rogers and i have tons of stuff about Paramore in my room." She told me confused.
"Why didnt you tell me? I thought we were best friends and you kept a huge secret from me!" I yelled at her with a little too much force.
"Well you kept a huge secret from me too so you have NO room to speak Mr. Emo!" She yelled back at me grabbing my arms with the deep scars on them i flitched in pain as she pulled away.
"I'm sorry but my mom said i couldnt keep the band if i didnt go to school so i kept it a secret so my band wont make fun of me going back to school"
"Why dont you cut Hayley?" I asked her ceriously. She just stared at me, she sighed.
"I've thought about it for a long time after my sister died but i will never do that knowing death would come soon enough and theres no need to waste a life that hasnt even been close to ending." She began to cry again looking down at my arms.
"I wont change, so dont stick around if you cant handle it." I said harshly at her it made me mad how she cared so much if i wanted someone to care for me i would have told a adult.
"Fine then tell me why you cut yourself if its so important for you to stop."
"My parents kicked me out when i was only 14 and i have been doing stupid mistakes ever since they did it." I looked down disgusted of those memories as i tried to shake them from my mind for a long time but they never left. They were like misguided ghosts that followed me in circles and it was distroying me in little bits soon causing a slow and painful death that i didnt mind to come.
"What stuff have you done?" She asked me.
"Well I've been smoking cigarettes since i was nearly 14 just to find an escape from this town that was so mean to me and Ive been hating the people in this world even if i knew them, knowing that they had someone to come to when they were sad or mad or just to have a fun time, they had a nice, warm home to go to when it was snowing out or a nice kitchen with food enough for a month or two and for that i envy those people cuz when those little kids are getting tucked in their beds and kissed on the cheeck, i was thinking about the same kind of people who used to do that to me until they couldnt handle me anymore, or when i was fighting the snowy nights with nothing but a couple of things to cover me up while they are enjoying hot choclate by a fire, or when they complain that they dont like a vegteble for dinner...well at least they had dinner where i would have to fight a person for a piece of bread only some people would care for me enough to give me a sandwitch or a drink which only lasts a day if i eat slowly." I said mad.
When i looked up at her, she had wide eyes with tears in them and she hugged me softly and said she was sorry but i knew she didnt understand and she never will. W hen the docter came in he looked at me and asked me if i could stand up as i tried i fell to the ground as Hayley looked at my legs with the ankles that were weak from scars as well and it hurt badly.
"You're going to need some blood donated to you if you want to live cuz you lost too much blood already." The docter said as i nodded.
"We could raise money at school for him" Hayley suggested as she kinda looked like she didnt want to go through the efort of getting noticed at school and i didnt argue with that thought i hated people noticing me. The docter nodded and said to hurry soon and i knew that this wont end well.
Here are some more emo/vampiric usernames, yet again preferably for girls:
The ones with ♥ next to them are my favs!
1. INeedAGod
2. GiveMeHope ♥
3. DeathAura
4. ReviveMyHeart
5. ReviveMySoul
6. BeatMyHeart
7. PatchedHeart
8. ItsAllLies
9. DevilWithin ♥
10. PureSkull
11. VoodooDoll ♥
12. Nightwish (and yes, this is a name of a band.)
13. CorpseWithin
14. WeakVeins
15. PainWithin
16. MonochromeTears
17. LiveLaughDie
18. StitchedTeddy
19. PinsAndNeedles ♥
20. BloodAndScimitars
21. KnivesAndPens (yes, this is the name of a Black Veil Brides song. I just love this band, so, yup.)
22. BloodLoveGore
23. NoInspiration
24. NoEscape
25. GodessOf[add word here]
25. SatansPuppet ♥
26. EveryonesPuppet ♥
27. IdioticSoul
28. CallOfTheNight
29. BringThePain
30. DesirableFreak
31. Imprisoned[add word here] ♥
The ones with ♥ next to them are my favs!
1. INeedAGod
2. GiveMeHope ♥
3. DeathAura
4. ReviveMyHeart
5. ReviveMySoul
6. BeatMyHeart
7. PatchedHeart
8. ItsAllLies
9. DevilWithin ♥
10. PureSkull
11. VoodooDoll ♥
12. Nightwish (and yes, this is a name of a band.)
13. CorpseWithin
14. WeakVeins
15. PainWithin
16. MonochromeTears
17. LiveLaughDie
18. StitchedTeddy
19. PinsAndNeedles ♥
20. BloodAndScimitars
21. KnivesAndPens (yes, this is the name of a Black Veil Brides song. I just love this band, so, yup.)
22. BloodLoveGore
23. NoInspiration
24. NoEscape
25. GodessOf[add word here]
25. SatansPuppet ♥
26. EveryonesPuppet ♥
27. IdioticSoul
28. CallOfTheNight
29. BringThePain
30. DesirableFreak
31. Imprisoned[add word here] ♥
To all the Emos out there....
Two slits on my wrists
To hide.
Two slits on my wrists
Whose blood subsides.
Leaving two scars on my wrists
Forever left behind.
Blood paints my skin,
As I cut away my sins,
Of hate and depression.
I feel pain for once,
That won't last long,
Because I sing my song,
Of death and pain,
With joy because I gain,
Peace...
I feel no love.
I feel no joy.
Only feelings of
The pull to destroy,
What is left of my soul,
Which is as dark as coal,
And end my life forever.
I toy with the minds,
Of people who find,
That I am not the same,
As I used to be.
And as I explain,
The tragedy,
That led to my change,
They recognize my life,
As unworthy.
So forever I sit,
Alone in this world,
Cutting away,
To my death,
Cutting away,
To my last breath.
Two slits on my wrists
To hide.
Two slits on my wrists
Whose blood subsides.
Leaving two scars on my wrists
Forever left behind.
Blood paints my skin,
As I cut away my sins,
Of hate and depression.
I feel pain for once,
That won't last long,
Because I sing my song,
Of death and pain,
With joy because I gain,
Peace...
I feel no love.
I feel no joy.
Only feelings of
The pull to destroy,
What is left of my soul,
Which is as dark as coal,
And end my life forever.
I toy with the minds,
Of people who find,
That I am not the same,
As I used to be.
And as I explain,
The tragedy,
That led to my change,
They recognize my life,
As unworthy.
So forever I sit,
Alone in this world,
Cutting away,
To my death,
Cutting away,
To my last breath.
Sanctuary
Fate has caused me all this pain
Inside I bare these scars
That will not heal
Please help me feel
All the love I was denied
I've tried to find sanctuary in myself
Why can't I find the truth of it all
Left behind in darkened times
Will I rise or will I fall?
But in the end its all the same to me
This curse inflicted upon my heart
Has gone and left me all alone
No one can justify
The cruelty i've known
Will I ever be the same again?
I've tried to find the sanctuary in myself
Why can't I find the truth of it all
Left behind in darkened times
Will I rise or will I fall?
But in the end its all the same to me
Is this the answer to all thay is real?
Can pain really be love?
Is life too cruel to feel?
Why can't I find the truth of it all
Left behind in darkened times
Will I rise or will I fall?
But in the end its all the same to me
Fate has caused me all this pain
Inside I bare these scars
That will not heal
Please help me feel
All the love I was denied
I've tried to find sanctuary in myself
Why can't I find the truth of it all
Left behind in darkened times
Will I rise or will I fall?
But in the end its all the same to me
This curse inflicted upon my heart
Has gone and left me all alone
No one can justify
The cruelty i've known
Will I ever be the same again?
I've tried to find the sanctuary in myself
Why can't I find the truth of it all
Left behind in darkened times
Will I rise or will I fall?
But in the end its all the same to me
Is this the answer to all thay is real?
Can pain really be love?
Is life too cruel to feel?
Why can't I find the truth of it all
Left behind in darkened times
Will I rise or will I fall?
But in the end its all the same to me