Chapter 3
Nov. 24, 1987
I wake up to bad 80's music and the smell of beer. I look to see that there is the bus driver. I look up at him and rub my eyes. He smiles.
"Morning miss I hate to bother you but you been on this bus ever since mid night and well...I came to collect pay"
"Well that's very kind of you sir to say that but at this time I really do not have any money to give you. Nor do i have any money to even give myself. I am sorry."
"Well I am sorry miss but I will have to call the cops then."
"Go ahead its not like I am not wanted by them already.."
"What was that remark mam?"
"Nothing"
I sat still and watched him make his way up to the front of the bus and reach for his bus phone. I saw a piece of broken glass on the floor so I picked it up and hid it behind my back. I started to walk slowly toward the front. Like a panther stalking his pray...slowly...then I took the glass and stabbed him right through his wind pipe. The blood was warm as it hit my face. And I took the glass and did it again. I saw hat his facial expression was the same one that Matt had made when I had stabbed him. He then turned around grabbed the collar of my shirt and tried to say something. Although the word was not very clear it sounded as if he said "thank you"
Once again I had done something I shouldn't have done. So I started to run again. I ran into a thrift shop and looked around.
" may I help you miss?" The man said.
"No..no one can help"
Then his smile quickly dropped and he turned around.
"Wait. Maybe you can. Do you guys sell switch blades here?"
He turned back around and started to speak.
"Yes. They are over there in that back corner."
"Great. What about lipstick? Or any black clothing?...wigs maybe?"
"yes. Over there. Are you alright miss?"
"yes never been better. You have a nice day sir"
'Uhhh..thanks you to..'clears throat' miss
I walk out of the store and into a dark alley..then I see a deserted old hotel so i welcome myself in. I look around. No one here so might as well live here. So i go up the dusty old steps and into the bathroom. I looked into the cracked glass and smile. Then I dressed myself and caked my face with makeup.
"Show time"
To be continued...
"Thanks...and you to mam"
I was as good as an actress as it was gonna get. Amazingly he actually fell for it.
Nov. 24, 1987
I wake up to bad 80's music and the smell of beer. I look to see that there is the bus driver. I look up at him and rub my eyes. He smiles.
"Morning miss I hate to bother you but you been on this bus ever since mid night and well...I came to collect pay"
"Well that's very kind of you sir to say that but at this time I really do not have any money to give you. Nor do i have any money to even give myself. I am sorry."
"Well I am sorry miss but I will have to call the cops then."
"Go ahead its not like I am not wanted by them already.."
"What was that remark mam?"
"Nothing"
I sat still and watched him make his way up to the front of the bus and reach for his bus phone. I saw a piece of broken glass on the floor so I picked it up and hid it behind my back. I started to walk slowly toward the front. Like a panther stalking his pray...slowly...then I took the glass and stabbed him right through his wind pipe. The blood was warm as it hit my face. And I took the glass and did it again. I saw hat his facial expression was the same one that Matt had made when I had stabbed him. He then turned around grabbed the collar of my shirt and tried to say something. Although the word was not very clear it sounded as if he said "thank you"
Once again I had done something I shouldn't have done. So I started to run again. I ran into a thrift shop and looked around.
" may I help you miss?" The man said.
"No..no one can help"
Then his smile quickly dropped and he turned around.
"Wait. Maybe you can. Do you guys sell switch blades here?"
He turned back around and started to speak.
"Yes. They are over there in that back corner."
"Great. What about lipstick? Or any black clothing?...wigs maybe?"
"yes. Over there. Are you alright miss?"
"yes never been better. You have a nice day sir"
'Uhhh..thanks you to..'clears throat' miss
I walk out of the store and into a dark alley..then I see a deserted old hotel so i welcome myself in. I look around. No one here so might as well live here. So i go up the dusty old steps and into the bathroom. I looked into the cracked glass and smile. Then I dressed myself and caked my face with makeup.
"Show time"
To be continued...
"Thanks...and you to mam"
I was as good as an actress as it was gonna get. Amazingly he actually fell for it.
Dear Obi,
It has been forever since i seen you last. When will you come home?
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Dear Lorrain,
I wish i could tell you how i feel.
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Dear Obi,
why dont you answer me back?
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Dear Lorrain,
Its hard to explain, i dont think i can make you understand.
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Dear Obi,
why what is it you want to say?
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Dear Lorrain,
I know we were friends but i think i love you.
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It has been forever since i seen you last. When will you come home?
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Dear Lorrain,
I wish i could tell you how i feel.
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Dear Obi,
why dont you answer me back?
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Dear Lorrain,
Its hard to explain, i dont think i can make you understand.
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Dear Obi,
why what is it you want to say?
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Dear Lorrain,
I know we were friends but i think i love you.
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Still I Show No Pain
© Sarah
I don’t scream
I don’t show no fear
I show hate
My face was burning
I wanted to die
Pleasure themselves
But torture me
I don’t cry
Not giving them the satisfaction
Smacked around
Beat down
Still I show now pain
Harder and Harder
Still I show no pain
Cursing
Still I show no pain
Inside me
Still I show no pain
About 2 hours
Felt like a life time
Everything they hoped for they didn’t get
Until I got home
I cried my eyes out
In the shower
I cried my eyes out
On my bed
I cried my eyes out
Best friends shoulder
I cried my eyes out
When ever I think about it
I cry my eyes out
When someone touches me
I feel it again
Until I’m aware that its someone I love
And I grow comfortable again
Source: Still I Show No Pain, Rape Poems link
© Sarah
I don’t scream
I don’t show no fear
I show hate
My face was burning
I wanted to die
Pleasure themselves
But torture me
I don’t cry
Not giving them the satisfaction
Smacked around
Beat down
Still I show now pain
Harder and Harder
Still I show no pain
Cursing
Still I show no pain
Inside me
Still I show no pain
About 2 hours
Felt like a life time
Everything they hoped for they didn’t get
Until I got home
I cried my eyes out
In the shower
I cried my eyes out
On my bed
I cried my eyes out
Best friends shoulder
I cried my eyes out
When ever I think about it
I cry my eyes out
When someone touches me
I feel it again
Until I’m aware that its someone I love
And I grow comfortable again
Source: Still I Show No Pain, Rape Poems link
I know it's cheesy, but i have no other way to put it
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You see me cry,
you see me bleed,
you see my hurt,
so why wont you talk to me?
You see me look at you when you walk by,
when you're not looking, i sit and cry.
How does it feel,
when the one you love,
thinks you're a freak?
You're the person,
that makes me smile,
but also make me sad,
and when you smile,
at that other girl,
why does it hurt so bad?
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Tell me, are you in love with someone who thinks you're weird? Tell me..... Please, because when he walks by me, I feel like my world is falling apart because he doesnt even like me back :'(
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You see me cry,
you see me bleed,
you see my hurt,
so why wont you talk to me?
You see me look at you when you walk by,
when you're not looking, i sit and cry.
How does it feel,
when the one you love,
thinks you're a freak?
You're the person,
that makes me smile,
but also make me sad,
and when you smile,
at that other girl,
why does it hurt so bad?
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Tell me, are you in love with someone who thinks you're weird? Tell me..... Please, because when he walks by me, I feel like my world is falling apart because he doesnt even like me back :'(
(The Ones I love) My Family
I remember when we first met
And I remember you smiling
Can it be true?
That one day
You would be my everything
I remember growing up
I remember the laughter that we shared
And remember you taught me
to seize the moment
and one day I will prove to you and me
Can't be right
All m life you've been there for me
And I don't know what I'll do
When you leave me in the end
But I wish we could just
Stay together forever
But I know that one day
You'll have to leave me all the same
I wonder if you know
How much I love you
And beleive that every word is true
You've watched me grow up strong
And I know it might seem wrong
But you've earned your rest
So rest your head and dream for me
Can't be right
All my life you've been there for me
And I don't know what I'll do
When you leave me in the end
But I wish we could just
stay together forever
But I know that one day
You'll leavev me all the same
I remember when we first met
And I remember you smiling
Can it be true?
That one day
You would be my everything
I remember growing up
I remember the laughter that we shared
And remember you taught me
to seize the moment
and one day I will prove to you and me
Can't be right
All m life you've been there for me
And I don't know what I'll do
When you leave me in the end
But I wish we could just
Stay together forever
But I know that one day
You'll have to leave me all the same
I wonder if you know
How much I love you
And beleive that every word is true
You've watched me grow up strong
And I know it might seem wrong
But you've earned your rest
So rest your head and dream for me
Can't be right
All my life you've been there for me
And I don't know what I'll do
When you leave me in the end
But I wish we could just
stay together forever
But I know that one day
You'll leavev me all the same