i need help!

Take some time in your day to just pray to God and seek answers, no one will really know your relationship with God but you and well God. Dedication and patience does wonders in Christianity, so try it and I assure you, results will come, just hope you are prepared for them

Try to go with the flow and relax your relationship with god a little. Don't force youself to try to connect. If it's not possible to plan friendship then how is it possible to plan your relationship with god?

And another advise that i'd recommend that may sound offensive is to question god a little. If you find the answers you'll probably get a even closer relationship with god. (Like after arguements with friends) If not you could change your believes a little or keep on trying.

Or maybe it's just the mood swings.

I'm not christain (sorry) so I dont understand some things about god so dont take this answer too seriously if you dont want to.

Peace and good luck

I know how you feel. Try reading the bible more, or praying more? I listen to a lot of christian music, and that makes me feel close to Him. :) Just spend time with God. And dont feel bad if you cant feel connected to Him. Just Hes with you always. Youre not always going to feel close or connected to him, but Hes there. In time youll feel more connected with God. :)